Understanding
"I just felt so helpless!"
"I understand."
"Really?" asked Cordy as she turned toward her lover.
"Yeah, baby I do, but why don't you tell me about it while I take care of you."
Cordelia's hair was brushed in silence until at last she spoke. "I couldn't do anything! I felt so terrible! I was ready to give up, I just couldn't take the pain any longer!" Cordelia broke down in tears. Her lover put down the brush and knelt beside her.
"Look at me babe." Cordelia looked up through tear puffed eyes. "I love you, I will always love you. I'm so sorry that that had to happen to you."
Cordelia leaned into her lover's embrace, sniffling slightly. "I know, I just wish, that- that we were together more."
Lilah sighed, "Not this argument again, please Cordy, it's my job. I didn't ask to be a part of special projects. I wish I could say that if I knew what was going to happen I wouldn't have done it, but I can't because as much as I wish I could spare you the pain, it's my job. But I am sorry."
"I know." Cordelia sighed again into her lover's arms, "It's just that sometimes I wish things were different."
"So do I, so do I," murmured Lilah.